Well, I can’t quite believe it… I have a 1st class BA Honours Degree in Journalism!
There truly is no better feeling than to gain an achievement in something that you have worked hard for and felt truly passionate about. I found myself moved to tears of joy when I read the email from my tutor confirming my degree classification, as the toil of the last three years proved itself to be so very worth it. I was hopeful I would get a 1st, but there has always been a part of me reigning my hope in ‘No, it won’t happen, you’re not good enough’. I guess we all have that voice now and again, but sometimes it can be the driving force to prove your negative conciousness wrong.
Of course, I would have been very happy with a 2.1 which is still a fantastic mark. However this year, as my marks continued to improve, I started to realise I had the potential to get a 1st overall. I’m extremely ambitious and I knew that was what I truly wanted; it may sound ungrateful but I knew anything less would have been bittersweet. I really did strive to make my work the best quality possible, pouring over books, journals and webpages, spending hours wording and re-wording sentences and trying to find the perfect quote. This is where I think my perfectionism trait actually comes in handy (not so much in exams!). In particular, I really put my heart and soul into my dissertation and it means the world to me that my efforts are worth a top grade.
Finally, I think the fact I got a 1st means so much more to me because I managed to get it after having the worst possible start to the New Year and in fact the worst experience of my life to date (explained in an earlier blog post here). It was horrendously tough, and I did miss a few lectures in January because of it. But somehow, it started to spur me on and gave me the determination to fight the sadness of the past and work towards a brighter future. We humans are often much stronger than we give ourselves credit for and we have the ability to exceed our expectations, even when life deals us a bad hand.